Lately, I’ve been going through some really intense interpersonal changes & emotional shifts, and it seems like that’s happening in response to the magick I’m doing in the outside world.
I’ve reached a point in my practice where my clients regularly tell me about damn near miraculous things happening for them in response to my endeavors and efforts, and it seems like my own internal world is trying to follow suit. As I’m encountering this in my own life, what I’m learning is that the way that I apply magick to my situation has to change too.
It used to be that I would use & wield ritual almost entirely on behalf of other people, effectively becoming a knife they used to cut through obstacles and trouble… Turns out that was pretty central to my experience of childhood too, so changing that pattern required confronting that pattern, first. That’s been something of a process, and it started many years ago when I first went into therapy following major medical diagnosis + reframing, and immediately before divorcing my ex-husband. At that time, I was using my magic solely for the persons I was supporting: it was all for others, and not for myself.
Eventually, what changed was the realization that I could use magick as a means of helping me to love and connect with people more effectively…. I realized I could go from spiritual and emotional caretaker to facilitator, to working as someone who could really significantly redirect fates.
…Up to and including my own. annnnnd go figure, that’s where things changed. That seems to be when I finally started acting like my own ally, and it began to catalyze this process of evolution, giving me some nuggets of truth to ponder in the meanwhile.
One that I’ll share today is this: if you’re feeling stuck, if you have a sense that you can’t actually actually change your circumstances the way that you are now, consider what you can address internally. Create peace through acceptance in yourself, and then really lean into the areas of discomfort - those are the direction in which growth will be had, and that’s how you change your life from the ground up. By all means, do the work necessary to support yourself getting paid and supported in the meantime, but step further into that space of becoming & magick won’t just be a cope anymore. It won’t just be a means of filling your time or making yourself feel important by changing lives for other people - instead, it’ll be about changing doors as well and emancipating everybody, yourself included. Lots of love.
-Effigy of T’s system
I’ve reached a point in my practice where my clients regularly tell me about damn near miraculous things happening for them in response to my endeavors and efforts, and it seems like my own internal world is trying to follow suit. As I’m encountering this in my own life, what I’m learning is that the way that I apply magick to my situation has to change too.
It used to be that I would use & wield ritual almost entirely on behalf of other people, effectively becoming a knife they used to cut through obstacles and trouble… Turns out that was pretty central to my experience of childhood too, so changing that pattern required confronting that pattern, first. That’s been something of a process, and it started many years ago when I first went into therapy following major medical diagnosis + reframing, and immediately before divorcing my ex-husband. At that time, I was using my magic solely for the persons I was supporting: it was all for others, and not for myself.
Eventually, what changed was the realization that I could use magick as a means of helping me to love and connect with people more effectively…. I realized I could go from spiritual and emotional caretaker to facilitator, to working as someone who could really significantly redirect fates.
…Up to and including my own. annnnnd go figure, that’s where things changed. That seems to be when I finally started acting like my own ally, and it began to catalyze this process of evolution, giving me some nuggets of truth to ponder in the meanwhile.
One that I’ll share today is this: if you’re feeling stuck, if you have a sense that you can’t actually actually change your circumstances the way that you are now, consider what you can address internally. Create peace through acceptance in yourself, and then really lean into the areas of discomfort - those are the direction in which growth will be had, and that’s how you change your life from the ground up. By all means, do the work necessary to support yourself getting paid and supported in the meantime, but step further into that space of becoming & magick won’t just be a cope anymore. It won’t just be a means of filling your time or making yourself feel important by changing lives for other people - instead, it’ll be about changing doors as well and emancipating everybody, yourself included. Lots of love.
-Effigy of T’s system