I experienced something like this over the weekend, as I felt an extreme series of ups & downs in response to what has occurred in my life. It was frustrating, but also an eye-opening necessity, as this "trauma" (a term I use rather loosely in this context) helped me to see a difference in how I was presenting myself to the world compared to myself as I am.
Contemplate these challenges & see where they take you. The more you dive into the patterns that cause your experience, the more you'll see and understand of them. You'll experience wide shifts in your perspective, and they can be tools for further unpacking and dissecting your experience!