It’s that time of year again, and as Mercury‘s retrograde looms overhead towards the end of the week, we are given an opportunity to do something different.

It’s a time of acknowledgment & a time for change, with growth happening in the littlest shifts of awareness that then lead towards greater realizations and the manifestation of satisfaction. This kind of satisfaction can only come to us and only be made manifest to us when we acknowledge what is & how that differs from what will be. As we come to grips with what is and why those things exist for us, we are granted the opportunity-through-awareness to do something differently and it is this quality
 which defines and underpins Mercury’s upcoming retrograde. 

If you’d like to surf on the September slide, start by acknowledging the negative biases against yourself & actively challenge them. Reorient your expectations and find yourself in the sadness.

For those of you who would like some help finding your balance, I am offering a giveaway through my Instagram this week only. Click the link and sign up! 

I will be working to create changes of awareness AND luck so as to manifest great fortune for myself and others. So if you find yourself struggling with this, sign up - it’s 100% free, and all you need to do is sign up, follow the instructions on the post linked above, and spend some time adding your energy to this. YES, it is THAT SIMPLE & I am indeed offering that kind of help to dig you and others out if your respective burrows so we can all reach for the stars, for that is what we are made of!

Blessings,
Chris

Trauma is pretty well ubiquitous as far as human conditions are concerned. Everyone has some modicum of expedience with it to a greater or lesser degree, and each of us have things that we struggle with. That’s OK!

….it’s also equally important that we have tools to deal with these pains so that we don’t hurt other people on OUR sharp edges. Through this post, I hope to give you some tools and access to a new perspective.

Pain and heartache suck, and I’ll make no bones about it. We don’t like going through difficult things in our lives, and sometimes life can be really damn unkind. When it feels like life’s goddamn unfair and we’re getting battered at every turn, it can feel like there’s no way to win, and that feeling of situation-enforced helplessness is AWFUL. It’s a saddening, sinking feeling & I don’t love it.

BUT, we are blessed to have magick at our fingertips. As witches and witchy folk, we’ve got the opportunity to use these difficult situations as a catalyst for change. As witches, we’ve got the ability to find a way to win, and it all starts with being able to redefine winning by intentionally getting the marrow out of every bone placed before us.

Every obstacle is a lesson, every lesson is a gift. They may not fucking feel like it in the moment, but when you’ve made the situational and behavioral changes the lesson’s meant to articulate, you win. When you make those changes and reorient yourself towards the success you wish to be having, you become more successful and more capable. Every hurdle you surmount and every challenge you overcome makes you stronger and more capable; let those wins make you more confident & the next time you encounter an obstacle like the one that hurt you before, remind yourself that you’ve already been here before and that those lessons from the past are now helping you architect yourself and your future.

Sure, you can get mired down and stuck - sometimes that happens - point being, though, is that it doesn’t NEED to happen. If you’re stuck in that mental space, reach out; I won’t process your trauma for you, but I can facilitate you doing so more easily by working with angels, demons, and all kinds of spirits in-between.

Blessings,
Chris

Those of you who have been following my work on Instagram have probably already seen the self-love focused work I’ve been doing with Vajrakilaya and the related self-healing endeavors I’ve been getting up to here. That’s come more sharply into focus as Chiron’s gone retrograde & I’ve had the opportunity to connect more deeply with myself. It seems like the more time I connect this kind of deeply with myself, the more I see these opportunities to connect in other people, and it’s from this space and awareness that I’m writing this post.

The internal perspectives we carry with us are really goddamn important; when they’re healthy, we can be healthy and do more with our days. When those perspectives are unhealthy, we find ourselves stuck in trauma, doing emotional labor on a given subject for the 5000th time. The positive perspective gives us lift, where the negative perspective drags us down, and so it is that what we see in ourselves matters.

More importantly, what we choose to see in the mirror every time we look at ourselves matters!

And yes, it IS a careful line to walk. There’s such a thing as too much self-confidence (like when we step into the realm of narcissism) & there’s such a thing as too little (like when we look at ourselves and choose to second-guess our self-worth without objective cause) - those are extremes, however, and we should aim to find ourselves & our headspaces somewhere in the positive-leaning center.

When you struggle with this, keep in mind that it’s possible to do magickal work to heal and grow. If you find yourself becoming too arrogant, work for clarity and awareness of what you do in the community around you. If you find yourself becoming too self-deprecating & depressed, work to see and acknowledge your own objective worth to your community at large.

Keep these things in balance and you’ll find that you enjoy life more fully and more thoroughly. This is one of those things that you’re going to be automatically afflicted or affected by, so you owe it to yourself to be kind to yourself and diligent with these perspectives you carry within.

Food for thought! Be well & stay tuned. If you need some help, you know where to reach me. 😉
-Chris

...And spotting them

This article's meant to be a brief dialogue into the mechanisms that sometimes keep us stuck & today I've noticed a big goddamn pattern with a client that's kept him stuck for entirely too long!

This client was dating a woman a good while back, and she has pretty well persisted in his life in an ongoing way for a couple of years now because he doesn’t want to do the work to separate himself from her fully. Instead, he’s living life
 with resistance bands around his ankles, chest & heart and I don’t love it for him.  

((something, something, maybe listen to your worker…I digress, but **frustration noises!**))

While I am working with Deity, I am spotting more and more of that pattern and have recently articulated it to him. I’m sharing it here in the hopes that people who are going through similarly abusive situations can spot their own patterns in
 their own lives and make the changes necessary to be happier and to live easier, more enjoyable lives.

I’m going to call this person [Jonathan], as while this is definitely not his name, we all know a John and this can totally be a helpful “dear John letter”. 😁

So John gets a blessing and things get better, and then his ex notices and does ritual work to drag him back because she can’t tolerate the idea of him leaving and not having her babies. Go figure, he is a literal male Adonis and she’s missing out! ((Maybe treat him better next time??))

Now, she’s gotten to the point where she can’t actually take his blessings because my work is GENERALLY pretty damn bombproof. Instead, she has decided to work against his trauma that he also doesn’t want to work at, in effect blinding him to his blessings by using his fear against him. Now that he’s in the space and he’s being actively gaslit by a combination of his own headspace and his fear, he can’t take advantage of those clearly manifest blessings ((like getting a well-paying side gig that is literally perfect for him to have stability while letting him also engage in entrepreneurial endeavors!))

As a result, that blindness to the really happy things that are going on in his life is keeping him in a scarcity mindset when the scarcity he’s afraid doesn’t actually objectively exist FOR HIM right now. It is quite literally down to him choosing what he asks for, and he’s been tricked-by-conditioning into not asking for enough…. Big problem!

This then leads to this incredibly difficulty emotional circumstance in which he is super attached to one outcome while simultaneously believing that he cannot actually have and materialized that thing. And the extra shitty part is that it’s all elective. He doesn’t need to go through this at all, but since he has trouble spotting the pattern and doesn’t want to spot the pattern because then that exposes him to risk by & through things changing, he’s resistant. John is affectively worsening his own life rather than making a handful of very easy changes that will drastically improve his life for the better within about six months.

Does this sound like anything y’all might be going through? If it does, I really hope that spotting this pattern through reading this blog post is helpful to you! Please, let me know about it if this helps, as feedback like this directly influences what content I create & share with you. 

I’m already offering one on one tutoring for clients who have asked for it, and now I’m trying to figure out how to better offer & make accessible those tutoring services to more folx! If this is helpful, it would really help me if you let me know! Please feel free to send me an email!

Be blessed, I hope this is helpful!
-Chris 

PS: My thanks to Borborophorba for Her help in this & other matters!

I'm a lone Magickian, but I feel strongly whenever my Brothers, Sisters & Those Between are targeted; where one of hurts, we all do. Such is the nature of what it is to be alive and so deeply interconnected. A great harm has been done today, and we will feel the effects of this for YEARS, make no mistake. Spirits shudder and tremble at what this means; we should too.

To all those who feel similarly, I've created an Enochian Chapbook for the day's efforts. Sing along and let your Heart move you. Raise your voice in song this day and let it all out. We have our turning points, this is one.

1) OPENING CALL TO PRAYER

SOLPETH, MONONS-MANIN: JAIDA IAD, JAIDA I eL, TON I eL, JAIDA I PRONOA*.

SOLPETH, MONONS-MANIN: ZZZDZ ZZD (“zohd-zoh-dee’), ZZZDZ Z L, ZDLZL, ZZZDZ Z ZLDLDZ.

2) PRAYER TO ALLOW EVOLUTION OF THE HEART IN CONNECTION WITH THE UNIVERSE

JAIDA OD MAAH: AQLO LOAGAETH COMMAH TON. GRU OI/UNAL MONONS, NOAN MAD, OD eL—NOIB, DRALCOM*—A TON AH, FAFEN MONONS PAAOX A ALMADAR, OVOARS POROMA*.

3) PRAYER FOR THE REFORMATION OF THE SOUL

IEH eL, IEH IAD, IEH JAIDA, IEH MAAH, IEH AHAH: SOLPETH K’ BIEN! DLUGA UNDL, RIT, NACRO, OD BLIARD K’ PAPNOR DE TIBIBP A OI MANIN OD QAA, JAIDA! IX OHIO OD CIAOFI DE OI MANIN, IUSMACH DE DOALIM: NOIB, OI FABOAN, CARMA. IX OI MANIN OM ETHARZI, IEH L, OD ZIMII POAMAL DE AQLO NAH MADRIAX.

4) PRAYER FOR THE UNIFICATION OF THE MANIFEST & THE DIVINE

ANGELS ON HIGH, SUPPORTS BELOW, CALL ON YOU TODAY WE DO WITH ALL THAT WE DO KNOW. WE RAISE OUR VOICES IN SONG, SPIRIT TO SPIRIT, VOICE TO VOICE, RAISING THE RAGING WATERS WITHIN AS A THRONG. AWAKE, AWAKE AND VANQUISH, WITH FURY THOU WORKEST AND ABOUT US THOU STAND QUICK. HAIL HAIL HAIL, MOST MIGHTY ON HIGH - RAIN HAIL HAIL HAIL UPON ALL SOURCES OF UNDUE OPPRESSION!

RAGE, RAGE, RAGE, THOU VOICES ABOVE US ALL!

​Working with clients through pain and heartbreak has taught me a whole hell of a lot over the years, and its incredible what we put ourselves through.

What we hold inside of ourselves is a lens through which we see the world. Every bias, every fear & every resentment becomes a focal point for our minds, and we interpret data from within that mental landscape.

.....This is the way of things, and we cannot escape ourselves. We can either choose to grow past our fears and limitations or we can succumb to them.

Which are you going to choose? To fight fear, or to fight back your happiness OUT of fear?

Food for thought.
Blessings,
Chris​

Depression is a THING for a great many folks when they work with the spirit Elubatel, known commonly as an Angel of Omnipotence. "He's" a manifestation of intelligent design, effectively working as a kind of "Knowing Architect" motif; not quite a Hierophant, but decidedly a builder. One that does quite eloquently understand our inner dialogue without critique.

When we invoke him, we bring to the table a spirit who is quite literally able to get into our inner workings and bring them to light....and to life. This understanding has drastically change the way that I interface with spirit, and more than that it's change the way that I look at myself. It is quite evident to me that we wish to pay attention to what's inside us when we approach the crossroads. That is where we truly intersect with our quintessence of Self.

When you work with spirits and get their help, really think about how descriptive you are with what you want and what you need. Focusing really intently on what's actually going to bring you joy tends to make a huge difference.

Thoughts to digest!
-Chris

This whole pandemic/lockdown situation has been pretty wild for all of us, and I am certainly not an example to the contrary. My worldview has changed and evolved repeatedly through this process, make no mistake, and it is continuing to do so. I've spent a year of solid just reevaluating my mental continuum, digging deep to find the hiccups and hindrances within.

It has been a whole ass process, and while I am extremely proud of myself, I recognize that I still have further to go. This post arises out of the depths of these contemplations, and I share these thoughts with you in the hopes that I can catalyze further growth for you without you having to do the same kind of heavy lifting. Consider this a compassionate contribution to your cause and contemplate how to give this forward. That's part of the exchange and part of internalizing these teachings, as we really do have to get into the space of doing a thing to really understand it.

Anything less is lip service. With that in mind, let's dive in. ((Ready, go!))

​I know it’s scary to love; it’s scary to live. 2020 & 2021’s fear and unrest got too many of us, but they taught us an important lesson: we can’t always protect ourselves. Sometimes the universe is going to throw us these massive curve balls that hurt us, scare us & drive us towards timid, terrified submission. 

But we are more than that and it’s our friends and loved ones that help us through the hard times. Embrace these connections and come to live with an indelible, concrete connection with self. That’s where the magick is. 

Take this knowledge and be blessed. You are loved so much more than you know. 

Peace. 
-Chris

Continuing off my earlier post about consensus reality, it's time to talk a little bit about the foundations that we keep in our lives & how they affect us. Our past and how it lingers within our minds and expectations has a direct influence on this reality, and this is especially true for those of us who have experienced trauma.

It's possible for a person to become so accustomed to being in pain that they don't necessarily see even the remotest possibility of things ever getting better. When this happens, trauma becomes a part of consensus reality for the individual; if it is or becomes the most resonant experience a person has, it becomes the root of their existence and a part of reality as they experience it & expect it to be.

The implications of this are both staggering and extraordinarily wide-reaching, as this happens in all areas of life. This can affect us socially, romantically, financially & in a myriad of other ways too. It's not something you can ignore; the scars will shape you from the inside.

It's for this reason that Shadow Work is incredibly necessary. Therapy & healing too, as when we exist within a traumatized, triggered state over a long term, it changes and rewires us. It modifies the way we feel and how we respond to opportunity, so experiencing the possibility of "different" becomes a means of completely overhauling your status quo. 

This then directly and indirectly impacts consensus reality on the whole, as broken people break other people. It's simple fact, as the lore unhealed & unresolved trauma people have, the more they tend to hurt and harm other people and create new traumas. By working through these pains and difficulties we hold inside, we make a point of bettering the reality we exist in. We change the fundamental nature of the world around us and make it better while simultaneously making our own experience better too. It's a win/win situation and this capacity to change what's within makes magick an incredibly powerful tool during these internal journeys!

Blessings, folks!
-Chris